Friday, November 28, 2008

I Found The Ash Stains On The Floor.

i went out side, to look at where my mum was sitting last night

and saw the history of the many deceptive nights

the collective of cigarettes dubbed out

i understand that my mother just couldn't do it

and that she was just protecting us

because she loves us

but i would find much more comfort in knowing

that because she loves us

she would have given up

and if she couldn't do it on her own

then let us help

instead, she gave up, and decided to hide it from us


i love my mum too much


1 comment:

  1. I have said this before, and I will repeat, that I don't believe you can love too much. And not your mum, who clearly cares for you. People don't always make good choices, she obviously made the choice not to tell you, I agree it wasn't the best thing to do, but she was ashamed and couldn't admit what she was doing, because she knows how much you care for her. Maybe you should tell her that you know, and offer to help her stop, try to show her that there are ways to help stop if she wants. And maybe her that she doesn't have to try to do it on her own, that there is nothing wrong with asking for help..
    I mean, it's up to you. But personally I think it might help. It's good to see how much you care for her.